Everyday I feel like life is so unfair. Otherwise, is it just fair enough only I do not see it the way I should? I have come this distance not only because of the people along the way who helped me get this far but also because of my own efforts to achieve all my visions in life. Being the eldest among my siblings, I have to struggle and overcome every obstacle that comes my way just to reach for my dreams and mainly, to uplift our family’s standard of living. Lucky enough there are so many people who are willing and able to help me finish my studies. Lucky, I have a few scholarship offers back when I was in college that helped me a lot in paying all of my school expenses and tuition fees.
Because of my hardships, I was able to land a good job, I may say. I was able to taste and enjoy luxuries in life bit by bit for I like the conveniences brought about by technology. While enjoying luxuries’ comfort, I was able to help my parents send my siblings to school and I am so blessed that they all finished college with brilliance.
All my life I have been thinking about my family. Been doing things all for their benefit. Now that I have helped all of them get what they want in life, isn’t it unfair that until now they want me to answer for all of their individual concerns? I felt like a mother eagle to all of them all this time. The once eagle hatchlings are now full grown and ready to conquer the air. Their wings are strong enough to glide and fight the current above. Now that I have let them spread their own wings to fly the distance, they would not even dare to. Why? I want them flap their own wings and experience it alone in the midst of oblivion. I want them to try. Fall. Moreover, manage to surpass the difficulty of flying until such time they would get used to it and enjoy flying alone by themselves just like what the true mother eagle would want for her own eaglets. Though it would be certainly painful for a mother eagle to watch her offsprings fall. Hoping they would one day bring home their own catch to feast on. Hoping too that they would learn the skills and techniques for surviving as an eagle warrior.
Seeing them crippled by their being coward is too painful. Watching them depend on me so much all their eagle life is a lot more painful. Teaching them everything I know, passing unto them all the skills that I have learned are the essence of my very existence. Yet, witnessing them fail in their every endeavor is an insult to my own eagle life. While me on top of everything, watching their every move and eventually would catch them every time they fall. Thoughts of holding on or letting go, battles in my head. If I keep on holding on, I definitely know what would happen. What if I let go? What would happen to them? Would they fall so deep? Would they vanish in the middle of nowhere? Will they be able to recover and conquer gravity? Living this life is like flying and breathing an eagle’s own with them in my claws.
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Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day, teach a man to fish and he will eat for life. Diba sabi ng isang kawikaan?
Each person must find his own path, his own journey, his own life.
You found your way, i am proud of you. Let them do the same.
wow,, sir nakaka inspire kau. sana ako din maachieve ko rin all my goals in life.
sir, u deserve it..
ei! the best help you can give them is letting them go and let themselves help themselves. They have to be independent. We learned how to, why can’t they? gookluck friend! take care na lang.
ang familia e familia. kahit anong mangyari kayo ang magkikita kita, kayo ang magkakasama.
bakit hindi mo sila kausapin na kelangan na nilang maging independent, na kelangan mo na ding harapin ang personal mong buhay.
time will come you’ll have your own family and you have to focus on that. sila na yung magiging priority mo.
hindi mo naman sila tatalikuran or iiwanan. it’s just that kelangan mo lang silang turuan mag isa. face the real life without your help.
ako nga sa dami ng mga mistakes ko in life, para matuto ako ng lesson ilang years akong hindi kinausap nung kuya ko. we spent christmas together in my parents house pero ni hindi nya ako tinitingnan.
so eto ako ngayon trying my best to be the best para makabawi sa pamilya ko. at maibalik ko yung trust na nawala.
think of yourself first muna john, kahit ngayon lang. baka sakaling medyo tumaba ka ng konti. hehehe!
keep up the good work! ang galing mo talaga!
pwede bang humingi ng advice kuya joe? “joe the mango” hehehe!